That Which Don't Kills Me....Only Makes Me Stronger....

   I find it interesting how at every point in my life...I find that there is some song around to be like the theme song of my life....and everytime I found a theme song, its the song I would play every morning to motivate myself and the first song when I get in the car.  For a whiles I had my favorite song by The Calling "Wherever You Will Go" playing....then I had "There's Gotta Be More to Life" by Stacey Orrico.....now I have Kanye's "Stronger".  After some of the -ish that I've been going through lately and all the thinking I've been doing...."Stronger" has definitely been my theme song and very uplifting at times.  The song motivates me to keep on trucking with everything that I gotta do.  Even on those mornings when I get up and I just don't wanna get started...it helps me get my day rolling and think that this new day is always gonna be a good one.....because yes.....that which don't kills me, only makes me stronger.
     Life has been treating me pretty good lately....teaching me a lot of new things.  Work has been work....busy and same ol same ol as usual.  I was wishing I had called in sick on Monday though.....could have gone out to party in LA with a friend.  I had a feeling when I woke up that morning that I should have called in.....cuz I just wasn't feeling work that morning.  Oh well....there will be another time maybe....but I just need out of San Diego....but thats a whole different topic. Anyhow....tons of paperwork to take care of at work....that while doing other -ish I gotta do daily, calling all the cancer patients and scheduling their surgeries, all while trying to prepare the office for our State CLIA inspection in November.  At least I got to go to a manager's meeting luncheon today for Sharp Hospital at the Four Points Hotel.  It got me outta the office for a few hours.  That was interesting.  Again....youngest one there.  Eh.  I got to meet the office manager at Dr. Yorobe's though....so now at least I can put a face to a voice on the phone.  I wish they would make us wear name tags saying which office we were from....just so yeah....I can put a face to a voice at each office.  Food was pretty good...I ate a lot as usual.
    On Tuesday night I worked at the bank because I traded Miriam so I wouldn't have to work Friday night.  I was supposed to head out to LA with Steph on Friday night....she decided to just roll up Saturday morning instead.....so now I have Friday night off to chill.....which I love anyways.  I rarely get Friday night off.  So yay for me!! Anyhow....got to talkingto bossman John.  John has been a good friend through all the years I've known him....even before he was manager. Got to talking about my coming of age type thang.  I was talking to him how my birthday got me thinking and how I feel so behind because I'm not at where I thought I would be and I'm not in the same place some of my friends are.  People are settling down and having kids....shoot...my ex's brother sent me a birthday greeting wishing me a happy birthday and to stop partying and get married and have a kid already.  Wow mang.  Like I said....I'm just not there yet.  Shoot...I don't even have a boyfriend...let alone I'm not even dating.  Urrrr.  Anyhow....so I was talking to bossman about all that....and he said turning 30 makes you realize a lot of stuff.  You look back on your life and wonder, "What the hell have I done the passed 30 years?"  He also said that you settle down a lot by the time you turn 30.....cuz in your 20s you are still about going out and partying.  So he told me that I'm not behind and that it'll all come together....and when it does....I'll be mature enough to take it on.  So now....I don't feel so bad.  Thanks John! 
    So lately I've just been chilling at home after work...but I need to be chilling at the gym dayumnit.  Which I will....starting Sunday night. Start fresh day....beginning of the new week.  Gotta bring sexy back!! Ha ha.  Especially with Vegas and Halloween coming up.  Yayuh!!  Being home has been good though.  Chilling with my Nanay and my Pops.....talking about this and that.....telling stories about our day, about work, the fam, etc etc.  Playing with the dog a lot too lately. Been playing with the dog more than I've been playing Wii surprisingly.  Even more so....just been watching a bunch of DVDs.
    Tommorrow I'll be going shooting with Tweety.  We going somewhere around Sea World when I get off work.  I'm thinking its the place in Morena where I used to go with my Pops back in the day.....and then Louie when we would go all the time before me and Jon were together. Anyhow...looking forward to going shooting...relieve some effin stress.  Yenno??  I just need to do relaxing activities...which strangely I find shooting one.  What I really need to do is go fishing...and I keep telling the guys we should go deep sea....I'll get them one day.  Can't wait for the cold camping trip with the high school crew though in November.  That ought to be nice...and relaxing....no stressful hiking.  Ha ha.
       This weekend I'll be going to LA with Steph.  Definitely looking forward to that and getting the hell out and away from San Diego....for at least 2 days....yenno? Tired of this scene gosh dayumnit.  I know one day though I'm gona end up in OC...cuz when I do my masters....the school I want to go to is up there....and then when I'm in OC I'll miss SD.....but for now....I;m sick of SD.  Bleh.  I don't really care where I go....I just need away.  Makes me even happier that I'll be going to Vegas not this weekend, but the weekend after that.  That is definitely gonna rock.  I desperately want to go to New York though....because I just love New York.  I think its about high time I pay my cuzzo a visit out there. Yayuh!
     Anyways...gonna go read some of the book that has been taking me forever and a day to read.  So...maybe I'll write more laters....we'll see.  Bye for now! 

Comments

[Rose]

so you have a Filipina bloodlines in you?that makes you a real unbeatable hehehe..I may add to that.."that which dont kill me, i will pursue no matter what"..i'll read more of your blogs for sure.

[robin]

your blogs are very interesting....wow....i wouldnt think that a good looking girl like you could write so good!!!!!anyways i dont think that you should worry about your age as long as you pursue your goal then everything would come to you!!!....keep me posted w/ ur blogs.....;-)